Going Dark

Shhhhhh.....

I'm going black for a little while.

I am going to be silent, quiet and too myself.

I am going to be finishing my book which should be ready to read in a few months

I am going to make love to my beautiful lover, almost fiance.

I am going to watch the sunsets, listen to the water run, the birds sing and the crickets dance.

I am freeing myself of this blog....

Just for a little while.... I got some inner work to do.

Ill be in touch from time to time

Feel free to look through the old blogs and comment on them. There are some really great ideas in the old blogs I am damn proud of them.

Let me know what you like or dont like.

THe best medicine for me right now is to hear what you think of my writing and my sharings.

See ya soon

Lights Out!

My affirmation

I transform myself into the freest I can be.

I invite all sacred teachings into my life and honor them by allowing myself permission to believe that every teaching is sacred.

I explore the unknown while releasing any need to judge anyone for anything.

I pray with every act I perform.

I forgive myself for everything I have done, have not done or have thought of doing.

I will succeed, I love myself that much

I am happy

I am alive

I am the luckiest person ever

I love me

Want to really fuck the system?

You want to get back at those evil doers?

You want to fuck somebody up?

You want to throw a monkey wrench in societies great machine?

You want to be a real rebel?

Then Love yourself.

Learn every way you can love yourself more.

Learn everyday where you are being mean and cruel to yourself

Learn where you are asking too much of yourself

Give yourself permission to be yourself

The scariest thing to a controlling society are people whoa re empowered.

To empower yourself, release everything that does not being you love.

How do you love yourself?

Face it

Somewhere in front of me in the valley ahead there is a great challenge.

If only I had more information, more clues, more support to make this challenge easier for myself. If only I had a clear sign a light coming from somewhere. If only I had the answer, the directions, the instructions. Then I could face that challenge.

So I sit and wait for more.

So I wonder. So I search. So I learn. So I go to Gurus. So I go to educators. So I go to see the people on the mountain.

I talk to the children. I look into the eyes of the elders. I look into to soul of the damned. I turn over every rock. I search every vagina. I pear in every ass hole. I wonder, I search and I learn.

But I do not attempt the challenge, there is too many reasons not to at this point.

Let it be said that I am a complete fool. I really am. I spent my entire life searching for what was already there. I spent my life searching for the glasses on my head, the keys in the fridge, the wallet on the night stand.

Everything I needed was right there all along.

The search for the answers for the great challenge ahead was right in front of me. All I had to do was.....

Face it.

So I face the valley and the long road ahead.

And I face it everyday.

I look into the eyes of my reflection. I look into the song of my ancestry. I look into the belly of the beast. I search within. The vastness of the universe is minute compared to the depth of my inner worlds.

You know what I find the deeper I go? The more If ace my challenge? The more I face my fear?

I find a desire to experience being human.

I want to eat really good pie. I want to make love everyday to someone I love. I want to spend time with family. I want to witness my father crying from tears of joy. I want to sing with strangers. I want to dance with neighbors.

At the end of the day, after all the vast searching I just want to be here. There is no greater place or more interesting adventure to be had.

Face your fears.... they are not as bad as we expect. They are gentle and want to be confronted. Invite change. Accept the road you are on. Enjoy the little moments, the little things.

FIre! Fire!

Fire in me.

Fire it pushes me

Fire in me burns bright and strong

I choose to use the injustices in our communities, our lands, our spirits, to be fuel for my fire

I accept all that comes my way

Fuel that fire within

Fuel that ragging fire within.

I take that fire, I work everyday, every second of everyday to channel that fire

To focus that fire

To use that fire

To bring change

Change to my life

Change to my land

Change to my spirit

Bring it on, whatever you got, whatever forces are against me

They are not against me

The wind at my face can be harnessed to fill my sail

The on-coming tide can be used to help me reexamine my perseverance

I have a fire within me and I am fucking proud of it

What fuels your change?